Friday, June 01, 2007

yahoo messenger

Had this conversation from some stranger in the net last night. I have no idea what I have been up to or maybe I was just doing a Blanch DuBois--- seeking comfort in the company of strangers...

(I'm zlickker in YM)


Read on...



csarvil
what are you up to??
zlickker
now?
nothin
csarvil
cool
zlickker
you?
csarvil
friends...... possible partner...
zlickker
oh ok...
have you been dating?
csarvil
lately no.....
zlickker
why so?
csarvil
the last time i went on a date.... walng ngyari......
you??
zlickker
dating
csarvil
cool
zlickker
for about 5 months now
csarvil
my dinadate ka na for 5 months??
zlickker
yep
csarvil
cool..... pero parang ang tgal naman ng dating period nyo....??
zlickker
wala lang... cant commit eh
the other person cant
csarvil
why??
zlickker
umm, ...with somebody else
csarvil
what are you doing???
waste of time..... waste of emotions....
better give it to someone else....
zlickker
... there are bridges you cross you did not know you cross until you cross...
im quite ok with the set-up now... quite...
its complicated as it is... and besides... i cant afford to give plenty of time for a relationship now... my work does not allow me to...
im sorry to disappoint you
csarvil
dissapoint me on what???? i mean its your choice....just be prepared to suffer whatever consequences that your choices might bring you at the end...
zlickker
im good... been to hell and back.
sigh
i sure can afford to step on fire with one foot again... and yeah.. too old for emotional dramas... sure there are other things more financially rewarding than just that....
sigh
damn.. i sure sound jaded
and yeah.. im not hurting the other party (i mean, the boyfriend). he is with his wife and kids...
csarvil
welll i guess you are really okay with the set up that you and your hopefully special someone have.....
zlickker
im not hoping really...

im not even sure if ill ever find that perfect one for me...
csarvil
how can you find that someone perfect for you??? you allow yourself to be stuck in a situation you know at the end you'll lose....
zlickker
its the point in my life that im pretty comfortable where i am (alone) and i have so many things to do and as long as im not inconvenienced, im ok.
not looking forward on how its going to end... im enjoying the moment as of now. tom will worry about itself
and yes... i only think about tomorrow when it comes to work... to which im really married to
csarvil
true filipino........BAHALA NA SYSTEM......
zlickker
all other attached to me except for work and family are but extra-marital affairs

csarvil
smiley
zlickker
im sorry... i know you disagree with me in so many ways.. and i cant understand why im pouring my heart to you right now... a stranger i dont even know...
please accept my apologies
csarvil
hahaha...... no need for apologies....
zlickker
smiley
cool


---end of conversation

2 comments:

apol said...

Kung artista ka, Gwyn, ang motto mo ay ang walang-kamatayang, "Career muna bago love."

decorator said...

yes ate luds... career muna. friends lang kami.